Tuesday, January 19, 2010

I Shoulda Known Better

It is high time I learn to stop putting my hope and trust in the Navy.  I am very sad today because I did not hear from my husband as we expected.  His ship was supposed to pull up to port today for refuel and all week we had been looking forward to this day, since he will get his first chance to call me.  I had a 30 hour shift last night and faught the temptation of sleep because I did not want to miss the call.  My father-in-law also called and the whole time I was talking to him, I was worried that I was going to miss the call.  You have no idea how many times I looked at my phone, while seeing my clinic patients.  I reviewed my missed calls a few many times, looking to check that it was not on vibrate or silent.  I checked my mail alerts and emails.  Then I started to worry and imagine everything that could happen, being that I am a woman, the worst usually comes first.  I haven't had the time to do anything else but make sure that I did not miss one message from him.  I finally leave the house in the cold just to get a breath of fresh air, only to return and find an email from him that expressed his dissappointment that he didn't get a chance to talk to me.  Baby, I cannot believe, you had to be placed on watch, it had to be us just because we were looking forward to this day.

I love and miss you dearly

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