Wednesday, February 17, 2010


It was really nice hearing the voice of my love yesterday! He is doing well.  cheers everyone!

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two."
-St. Augustine

Monday, February 1, 2010

Hard Times

I am having the hardest of times, I have had all the signs and symptoms of my depressed patients.  Boy! I really thought I had gone through the worst of everything.  Every time I find something that makes me cheerful, I find out that Jude is not there for me to tell.  I am stressed and can't stop eating- in total, I have gained 18 pounds.  I know it must be hard for Jude and the rest of the crew, since they are stuck in the ship for 6 months, but I can't control the way I feel.  Yesterday, I couldn't sleep probably because I was afraid he would call and I would miss it.  When he did call, we didn't know where to begin, but soon we realized that there was a line of people waiting their turns to call their family.  It took us a second, then we asked questions about how we were, and we both lied that all was well.  We talked a bit, but had to be interrupted because someone else was up to use the phone.  Today I thought after work, I would go to the gym, working out seems to ease the stress away, but I didn't last 15 minutes and then I came home and ate more than my belly can handle.  I appreciate all of your prayers for my husband but please pray for me as well.